Freaking emo..

sorry guys...another emo post on me..

so many requests to update...finally i shall do it...

okay okay...enuf crapping...

this few days...

been lectured by my mum...

my dad wasn't happy at my decision to still want to go back to music...

seriously...i was thinking am i leaving my music career behind??

i think vincent is guessing correctly..

but dude...i'm jz picking up another skill...

i nid to chill like ebil said...yes gurl i do knw...

i knw i bothered chin ni too...so sorry gurl...

i m freaking pissed off at times when they realyl make me sad...

do they knw my feelings? no right?

tat was wad my high school fren told me when he read my palm that day...

he said a lot of stuff that shocked me...i wont disclose some personal stuff...

but what he said when i was upset that i will indeed search for my frens instead of turning to my family...

he shocked me to the core...

i really am as what he described...

yes...i have failings in my life...i'm trying to accept myself as it is...

n BS i dun even knw what i want...

that's what's with the emo posts....

n with the fb damn frust post....

i'm having bad dreams...

dreams on very bad situations...

should i try out the new course?

or should i opt for teaching?

or should i jz go and work as a music teacher??

but i dun wish to work in kedah anymore...

i want to be spared from seeing him again...

why the torture?

another 3 days is his birthday...

i nvr gave my heart to a man as i did for him...

i dun even knw should i greet him like i did for the past 3 years i first knew him??

the deja vu day left me a great inpact...

it has been haunting me ever since that day...

and i kept thinking of him...

seriously...

i dun even nw what i should do now...

suppose i fail again...then what should i do???

sigh...i nid to rethink all the consequences that will happen...

till then...i shall think properly....

AsHLeY