Sadness

Sadness,

it's what i am going thru..

my frens in UNI r bz as ever...

my "frens" during primary?

some forgotten...

lifelong frens?tak payah harap i have them...

secondary "frens"?all want something out of me...

family? dissapointed with me...

i guess i might not wanna talk about some recent things in my life....

they're horrible memories....

but now....i m starting my life anew?

AM I???

am i doing what i think i am doing??

why?

i seem to have lost everything i have in my life...

i dun wish to lose control of it completely....

i do hope i'll get the hang of myself soon...

i have lost you.

i knw i have..

the day i saw you so happy ...

with her...

talking,

joking,

as if i nvr existed...

i know i could nvr let you go...

but i must try...

deeply frm the bottom of my heart....

i miss you so much.

i wish u will gv me another glance and lie to me that everything is fine between us again...

but...i wish you will nvr know...

i will exchange anything in my life just to see you happy....

and i knew my price for asking it already...

AsHLeY