Ashieyu

here comes 2010!

2009-12-29T00:06:00.000-08:00

ahh.....here comes 2010 already...
so fast!! @@

seems like ytd my parents made the move to shift house....
seems like ytd that my sister was born...
seems like ytd that i was d innocent n naive high school girl...
seems like ytd i got everything in my life...
seems like ytd tat i passed my music exams...
n seems like ytd i was the strong willed person to have strong likes and dislikes...
what happen to the me?
i guess people change,u change(whoever who is readin it now),i change,we change...
jz like michael jackson's Black or white that my lecturer put on class reviews...
i put all the past behind me...
i crave for lil things unconcerned with my life...
i start to delve into my religion and i start to practise detachment...
am i doing the right thing?
i guess i am...

why am i like this?
being hurt in a few relationships really killed my life during my senior high school years....
it killed me when i first stepped into my first college too...
and nearly did when i had an immune to myself for quitting my music degree...
writing has been my pasttime...
maybe it will stop here as this will be my last post...
i dun wish to hurt anyone with my anonymus posts of writing...
so be it...
the nxt time u guys find me is thru face...
i'm closing this down with this last post...
i wanna wish everyone who hurt me,loved me, hated me,
a very happy new year 2010...
i forgive your sins...
but i dun hope u forgive mine...
because i dun think god can forgive mine as well..
well,i m jz a human...
i wish to end everything with a sorry...
i'm sorry to those who i hurt who met me in this life...
especially my parents n my family...
god bless you all...
happy new year 2010.

AsHLeY

THE PRETENDER

2009-12-13T03:41:00.000-08:00

Why must you ask? If you already know the answer.
Why must you seek? If you already know it is there.
why must you think? If you know you’re right.
Why must you pretend? If you know you’re great.

Why must you feel? If you know how it’s like.
Why must you hurt people? If you know they will be hurt.
Why must you cry? If you know you’re sad.
Why must you pretend? If you know the truth.

Why must you guess? If you know it’s yours
Why must you hear? If you know it’s unpleasant.
Why must you agree? If you know it’s wrong.
Why must you pretend? That I have feelings and u make don’t know.

Because only I can see through you and the answer is you are a GREAT PRETENDER!!

AsHLeY

i miss??Vampiress is back!!

2009-12-11T18:49:00.000-08:00

i miss........
and the vampiress is back...

vampiress today wanna wish her daddy happy birthday neh!!
too sad vampie cannot bake a cake surprise him...haih....

well...
suddenly vampiress won the battle to be Un~feelingness!
vampiress no mood to talk much...
but feeling very energised!!
vampiress got to work harder to earn more money...
nid money go hv fun...n in order to change a new phone...
haih....
vampiress got the urge to kill someone since last week...
but the person always manage to slip away...
since now is sem break,vampiress is budding the urge to kill for monday...

if monday dun come,there is tuesday n wednesday n thursday!!
vampiress dun k already...
if dun kill him...i m not a vampiress...
not one who is a brunette(half red half brown actually),moods shifter n one helluva unique person...

btw,i still dun get it why guys...n especially guys think i m special...
i m JUST a NORMAL human LAH!!!!
sigh....
till here then....
vampiress gtg....
translocation!
bye~~

AsHLeY DA Vampie

ohkay...surprises...surprises~

2009-12-07T20:38:00.000-08:00

wahh.....
too many surprises in two days time...
i hope i get another later...kekeke....
WHY???
yeah...m sooooo gonna tell u why!!
first,it has got something to do with fb....
hehe...my fren suddenly uploaded my beloved donkey eeee~~'s pix...
lol...
hahah...
imagine lah...
suddenly kena tag at my own donkey's head...
blek...dun jealous yah monkey!!
ok...
then 2nd is...
MY MUM!!
she bloody gave me a freaking shock yesterday lah!!
of all the times...
she ask me bout who i m with when i m half asleep...
not yet even wake up!!
walao@@
hello.....why r u like the MIB students...
all assuming pakai suka hah!!!
no i m not with any seniors....
shocking since my mum nvr even bothered to ask me b4 lah wei!!
terkejut gao gao!!
i told her simple only...
wanna knw bout my bro's gf jz go ask him...
i dunno!!
she ask me..
i ask only mah...y u so worked up for??
hello???
as if u dunno any betta than that??
wth...
same college with ur own sibling isn't fun..
yes...
i might hv made some name for myself lah...
but think again...
is it cos of me or my bro that i m famous...
Ashley is the name...
the word for a few of the seniors to breath on..as if i m some kinda drug!!
bloody shit!!
i told u i dun like u senior guys...
so shut the fuck up n leave me alone!!
my warnings have been issued....
n yet...wad the hell r they doing???
if the nxt time i find it happening...
i'll gv a bloody tight slap!!
and jz fuck off....
well,i finally told mummy...no guys frm college nymore....
n then i jz told her is someone new...
n that he is not frm same campus...

i jz met him...
n actually to keep my mum shut up,
i told her i m scared to think about all this...
yeah...hell it does scare me...
3rd surprise man!!!

i saw kelly shu!!
walao....
gurl...i seriously got text u...
but nvr get ur reply..
jz text me wei...
i dunno is u nvr get my sms or what....
i really terkejut see u lah...
u see me like see one ghost!!!
i was on my way to college to settle some stuff!!
dint even think i will get so much of a shock to see u!!
hey gurl,jz to tell u harr....
i quit UCSI half year ago..
now m studying in same college with my bro...
u dint check out my FB profile lah..tat's y...
n my new websites n blogs on my fb...check it out yeah....
it's fun learning to bake rather than music 24 hours!!
haha...yeah..i do still do music...
but on my own!!!
ok lah...till i hear frm u....

AsHLeY

OVER MY FINALS!!!

2009-12-03T19:25:00.000-08:00

over liao my finals...
finally....
now sitting n writing again...
if i dun write,i might jz die off....
this feelings jz left me dead....
i donno y....
but everytime i close my eyes,
i'm tortured by the sight of u...
i really cannot take it anymore...
fucked up my whole life now...
i duno why...
i m pissed and i m sad...
i saw u last nite...
u ran the moment u saw my name...
u dun hv to hide from me....
but i promised not to talk...so i wont...
i promised and i will do it...
i hv to sleep...and yet dreams came...
i'll not avoid it again...Nvr....

AsHLeY

what the hell....

2009-12-03T09:11:00.000-08:00

i really really feel like cursing now ok...
i'm so sorry...
but tis time i really can't help it...
i don't absolutely know and sure about this....
i really am down...
i don't know who to talk to...
who really trust me...
yes people trust me on their problems when they tell me...
and yes thanks for confiding in me...
but for me?
who do i confide in?
not even my mum...
here??
sometimes i m jz stating that i m turning around n around in circles that pretend i m mighty happy...
n guess what?
i end up being more rotten than ever...
people come n go thru my blog...
but do they ever really understood a single thing i wrote?
yeah maybe some does...
i knw some ppl does...
u dun hv to run or hide now...
i promised u things i have promised...
i won't do what i promised till u made the first move again....
i will suffer in silence no matter what....
no matter how hard it is again...
no matter how many times i muz go thru this kinda pain again...
i will wait....
will wait till the time u r ready to talk to me again....
maybe i m not good enough for u...
maybe i am...
i need time to find out n time to show me...
i need a chill pill from everything tat is going on in my study life now...
especially the 10-6pm hours....
i seriously don't know what to do or say....
i can only write...
n write...
n hope this blog when i see it again some day...
i might find it plenty childish...
to wonder how i can cry n type at the same time...
i pray for forgiveness....
any kind to anyone that i have hurt before...
i am sincerly sorry...
that i hv to hurt people's feelings...
i m what i m today because of karma...
i dint choose to hurt u all...
i need some time to rethink all things possible....
i hv to grow up...
i seriously do...
i nid to stop doing all those childish stuff...
say all those kinda hurting stuff...
even to think about it....
be nicer to everyone does make a difference...
sometimes i use to think...
what will happen if i end up being rude?
maybe i got the answer to it...
that was my past....
being rude is h*** no way now...
i m learning from my past mistakes...
i wanna be free to think....
that i will be someday a good person to talk to...
to reason with...
and to be frens with...
maybe i wasn't such a good fren after all...
so i'm sorry to those whom i wasn't so good at...
sincerly frm me...

AsHLeY

Sick!!

2009-12-01T22:11:00.000-08:00

AHHHHhhhhhHHHH!!!!
Of all the bloody times i must fall sick!!!
@@
i really dunno wanna say what....
finals is already here...n i m still sick for 3 days??
god help me!!
i really dunno what to say now...
i can say that i m a bit disappointed with someone....
but i jz dun wanna show it....
i can say that i m really having disturbing thoughts about everything...
i jz dun wan it to happen...
god plz...
why is all this happening over n over again??
i m tired...i really am...plz god...
jz plz let it all end...
let it all end in peace...
i wanna love again...
i know i let my feelings all out before..
but now when he treats me bad,
i feel as if i owe him another piece of me...
i want him to stop being jealous of all my friends...
i dun wanna control his lifestyle...
i only wish he understands tat i wanna have frens...
plz....i really am tired being mentally tortured...
i want him by my side occasionally...
i want him to be called mine...
i want him to succeed in everything he does...
even if it means that i won't get to see him for a few years...
it doesn't matter...
but it does matter to him??
does it not?
i don't know...
if u r reading this post of mine,
will u reassure me sayang?
will u??
tell me i will always be ur baby...
plz god..i want all this answered....
i really hv no more strength in me to fight when i m sick....
plz let it all be alright...
i promise i won't fight with him...
that i will listen to what he tells me...
that i will always support him...
and that i will always love him...
i don't know...
it hurts to be loved and then dumped...
it always had.....
i always wanted to 'belong'...
now u tell me u wanted this feelings not to go away...
but when i asked u again some time ago,
u said u will reconcile...
what is the meaning of this??
i'm scared...
god plz dun play with my emotions...
my feelings....
i want this all to be secured and ended....
plz.....i beg u......

AsHLeY

i hate being EMO!!

2009-11-27T05:46:00.000-08:00

I f*cking hate being EMO!!
why are all my posts starting with RED???
i think this will be red thruout....
to mark my words..
i loved you,
i cared for you,
i only want happiness from this situation we are in,
i dun care what people might understand from this damned post!
it wasn't my mistake that u and i are in this situation...
NO,i'm not indicating it's urs too!!
i want us to be there...
i want us to work this out...
i want us for present and future!!
no matter how fugly it might've been in our past!
i don't care what our friends might think!
if i cared so much to those talking,gossiping and backstabbing,
will i even dare to say those things to your face?
TELL ME!!
stare into my eyes and tell me!

F*ck it!!

haih....anger...anger...sadness~~
it always overtakes me...
now i m more calm...
after facebooking?hell yeah...
kinda addicted to the interviews...
i answered some on you...
but i not dare to post those answers i would have liked...
i m not gonna do anything to jeapordize us...
i want us to be stabilised...
i never wanted this so badly...
i jz crave for it...
long distance also long distance...
i want it...
bring it on!!!

AsHLeY

@@ sorry for the late update!!

2009-11-23T00:08:00.000-08:00

waaa.....so long since i last updated my hallowy sleepy blog nowadays...>< hehe...paiseh neh...
i done so many things in my past sem...
yes time really flies bii...i know that...
i hope u can come back asap...
well....i had watched god knows how many movies in midvalley,sunway n i dun remember...timessquare?or did i not?
i hardly remember wei...so sorry...T.T
ahh...finals finals...
i passed all my practical for this sem...
but no idea how many marks...
n no idea on my GPA cos my theory is nxt week...
but i know i can do it....
cos i must do it!!!
i done too many wrong things in my past...
n now is time to redeem myself....
not like some of my frens who are still in disneyland mode....
i dun wanna regret in my future for my pass as i m regretting for my past now....
i m in my redemption period.....
so...i muz work my best n do my hardest....LOL....
i muz work to improve everything in my life...
my family ties,my frenship ties,my working ties n even my relationship tie.....
so...
everyone wish me good luck larr......
when my new sem starts...i hv international cuisine....walao@@
i dun like cooking......@@

AsHLeY

hallow33n

2009-11-03T10:25:00.000-08:00

wow...now i m blogging about the late hallow33n post...
it's 1.30 am in da morning...n i m still on9...
kinda freaky when i m sitting all alone...
but wad to do...

i went out with my fren cos he had a job interview near BB Plaza...
n of cos he wasn't familiar...
i had to jz at least guide him thru the place there...
walking in da rain for two times...
but i dint complain anything...
it's not my place to comment cos he was running late for the interview...

the directions given were kinda stupid tho...
the interviewer when asked about directions...
replied n failed to state that there were 3 SEVEN 11's at the place!!!
bloody buggers set us walking in circles...

finally reached the intended destination..
n i waited n dried myself from the rain....

after the fiasco,
we went to hv dinner in Sg Wang plaza...
that's when where he told me...
'Hey Ash, there's this old man rite......'
i was like...huh??u sure or not oh??
he said...yes i m sure....

i went to check it out...
but it turned out this old man was not there...

i went back to our table n said...
'where got???i dun see him at the washbasin like u said..'
'u told me that he wash his hands for like 5 mins n dried his hands for 10 mins'

he kept saying there was this old man...
but i dint see him...
was my fren seeing things on hallow33n??
that i'll nvr know.... =.=

PART 2

ok....after sg wang n my walking to every bookstore n music store....
we decided to go to timessquare...
so we did...
walked over in da rain under umbrella tis time...
after going in n out of hallow33n stores...
i decided to go back...
it was 9pm n i was scared there wasnt gonna be any transport home...
but before i went back i gave a call to Justin...
i knew Yn wouldn't pick my call....
n yet...justin picked....
i asked him..
'yes dude...where r u??'
he replied..
'in timessquare.'
i shouted..
'what??u in timessquare?? yo dude....i'm here with jeevan lah!!'
he asked me..
'what??what is jeevan doing with u in timessquare larr??'
i replied..
'got lah...come meet up...i tell u'
he said..
'okok...see u there..'

finally we met up...
we were curious n excited how we turn up to be in da same place at da same time...
n yet....so funny...we did!!
yn n justin had dinner n i jz sat there chit chatting...
till i called up another fren cos a crazy idea jz came up to me....
he was so ok when i texted him earlier n he was on his way to meet his bestie....
an hour later he told me...
i jz met an accident...no mood to talk to u....
yn lectured me for not asking...
she asked me to call him...
n she talked to him...
we saw a gold man...n we took pix with him...
dun ask...
pix with justin ang n jeevandran...
wait i FFK them!!!
after that i emo-ed all the way to pavillion walkway with pubs n bistros...
till i was so @@
finally when we walked to the carpark only he called me back..
he promised and he called...
he said he is ok n reached home..
so case settled....
i went to cheras n they prepared for the crazy idea i had set upon em....
seriously no idea how crazy n mad i was at that time....

PART 3

it's 2.30 am...
we set out...
to a most eerie place in cheras...
i dun even remember the name of the place tho i saw it...
well....
we were out for GHOST HUNTING on hallow33n....
crazy rite?
but we jz went....

3 am...
got ready n went to the apartments...
freaking creepy wei!!!
the swimming pool was the first thing we saw...
it's pitch black colour!!
made me squirm...
we held hands fast!!! n two torchlights!!
then we walked in a line...
the guys were very very adventurous....
fuck wei...
the manholes were only covered with wood...
n the doors were all sealed....
i always felt something was watching me...
freaky rite?
but tat was it...something was watching me...
i gripped jeevan n justin gao gao...><>
we went to the 2nd door...
n it was nailed in!!
oh my fucking god!!
the two tried to wrench in da place....
then they decided it was not gonna work...
went around again...
tis time they found another door...
near the elevator!!
but the elevator has no elevator...
OMFG!! @@
tat place is creepy lah wei!!!
n yet....they trying to go up....
they found the door open...
when the water dripped on the floor only oso we r scared like shit...
then justin's flashlight suddenly KO-ed...
yn was trying to get the torch to work when she heard some sounds...
n then.....
luckily the torch worked back...
n she shone it towards the sound...
we were relieved to find that it was the sound of water dripping.....
i was calm..
but when all this happened...
i prayed in my heart...get me outta here!!!
justin n jeevan kept pressing me to go upstairs..
i said NO...no n NO!!!
they were hoping for me to say yes!!
n yet i said no...but yn said it's up to them to decide....
they saw i was too scared to go up...
so......
finally they gave in...
so we left...
OMFG!!!
so that was my hallow33n!!!

cannot believe it rite??
me neither...
i was shaking after the stupid n crazy thing i done on hallow33n...
n i can't help saying i was freaking scared till can't sleep...
so everyone teman me till 6 am....
thank u guys...
for the unforgettable HALLOW33N!!!

AsHLeY

finally the new me!!

2009-10-25T02:20:00.000-07:00

halloooo!!
sorry for being a lazy person tis last few weeks....
really sowee.....
i'm tired from a lot of activities n a lot of shitty troubles in life...
but still i m happy to be in this life....
i thank lord buddha for the chance he gave me in this world.....
at least i helped to change a bit of people's lives....
i changed myself over the years....
my hometown friends dun even recognize me anymore...
i wasn't the hot tempered girl they used to see me as...
the red lil devil with horns n a lil tail...Muahahahaa >.<

so....a few disappointments n heartbreaks dint disappoint me after all..
isn't tat scary??
i kinda missed my old lifestyle....
but i m kinda glad it was history too....
new college is not really stressful...
but some people are....
haha....
one day they shall know tat i m da only one who treat em without prejudice...
for now i keep the words to myself....

P/S: to those who think of taking advantage on people...think again...
cos i m da guardian of vampies...
tis is a W-A-R-N-I-N-G!!!!

AsHLeY

15.10.2009

2009-10-15T00:00:00.000-07:00

today is my birthday...i'm so sorry guys for my late posts..

1st,i've no laptop...

2nd,no net connection

3rd i'm freaking bz...

4th, my baking blog is jammed cos i lost all my pix due to stupid memory card gone crazee!!

5th, my website oso tak di siap siapkan...mampos my lecturer gonna gv me gao gao!!

okok...chill~~ hehehe....

i wanna thank the guys n gals....

those who did their honour in celebrating with me...

as some of them knew,

i was emoish in the sense that i recently had an ex bf n i wasn't so happy about him...

and my friends have been accompanying me till 4-5 am in da morning...

tat is natalie n trevor!!

well....i HAVE requested no presents!!!

but still my ex gave me,ah yao n quek!

Justin n Yn came all da way frm Cheras to celebrate with me till 2 am!!!

hehe...n thanks to sis ashley for singing UR bday song to me...

n twice at that!!

thanks to Trevor,Mervyn n Natalie who came too!!

n thanks a lot to my parents who gave me my golden key tis year!!

*promise to be good now*

n for my birthday cake...

tis year a bit special...i made it myself...LOL...

ok....i do have a few pix in my fb....u guys go n see it urselves larr...

i already lazy wanna upload here.... >.<

here r the earlybirds i would like to thank:

Li Ling

Trevor

Ashley

Mervyn

Justin Ang

Natalie

Wan Ying

Ah Yao

Jun Lin

Daddy

Mummy
grandma
grandpa
aunty

Poh Siang

Kupu

Unc Steren

Kenneth

Hooi Ching

Miss Teoh

Chin Ni

Hui Chian

Leon

Kendrick

Abang Win

Keven

Reen

Kok Kian

Naav

Renata

Herry

Vashina

Abang Shaun

Mai Yee

Steve Lam

Gracia

Ronald

Bobby

Chee Hou

Grace

Ivonne

Poh Mei

Wilson

Vin

Alvy

Carina

Ferdinand

Serene

Terranz

Daniel

Sien Loo

Su Chen

Eliz

Jia En

Max

Shu Cyan

Samanda

Quek

Poh Jing

Jeremy

Andy

Laterbirds r!!!!!

WEI KIT

pandai kan wei kit???
langsung tak ingat aku ya~~

i went to see the movie cloudy with a chance of meatballs!
damn funny....everyone started laughing!!muahaha...
imagine food can fall frm the sky!!LOL

Jeremy teman me too on my bday...thanks for coming!!

thank u guys n gals once again...
i DID have a blast!!

AsHLeY

090909

2009-09-09T07:33:00.000-07:00

090909
nice title rite?

i had a great day in campus today...

really great...
n it's aunty's bday!!

so HAPPY BDAY!!

our seniors r leaving us soon...
n i would like to wish em wherever they might end up to be happy n successful!!

i had a great time two days ago with my UCSI frens too....

AsHLeY

thanks guys....n gal...><

2009-09-02T06:50:00.000-07:00

see....
cute or not this frens of mine...
they're really damn close to me...

Yn n Justin...
tis time he really came...
no more fly my kite...
hehe >.<

u see this two guys arr.....

group pix....i hug yn siap siap...
i called her 'ah ma' summore..hehe...
n tim look like 'ah pa'

take two!!
i change let the three guys stand...hehee.....
cos jhony actually complain he can't stand behind the chair...
then pull away dy can stand...hehe...
><

last take...
n justin emoing kan??
he looks so thin lah!!!

thanks for coming to see me again guys...
i really do miss u guys....
n Yn, titiwangsa some day...
plus the gig ya!!
but no promise to perform....

AsHLeY

I'm Sorry

2009-08-30T03:29:00.000-07:00

i know u r reading this even tho i dint say u muz drop by....
i wanna listen to my own instincts...
i can nvr love u....
i am sorry....

i wanna continue with my life and studies first...
my parents willed me to not have a relationship...

so,with my attitude,

i know i can nvr be good in any relationship as well...

i'm sorry if u feel hurt when u read this...
i have warned u....

AsHLeY

Life?

2009-08-26T09:21:00.000-07:00

Life in MIB?
for being single n available makes the catch?
seriously....
i take the title single n available damn serious...
i love my life the way it is...

even with a confession....

I FINALLY TALKED TO THE DUDE WHO MADE ME SUFFER FOR YEARS...

n another confession by another guy.....
i m so sorry....

but i treat u as my brother...
if u read this,plz dun hate me...

my heart actually fell for someone else even b4 u confessed...
now we are only best frens now....
i hope u r not angry....

i love the place here
except for some stuff which made me damn pissed....
19 year old dunno how to tie shoelaces??
WTF!!!
A&W oso tak tau??
bengong betUI!!!

the rest still ok lah...
i have plenty of crazy frens....
haha....

of more updates,get to my kungfubaking blog...
my facebook....
or wait till i update again...
till then!!

AsHLeY

Tiramisu~ing

2009-08-19T10:17:00.000-07:00

hehehe.....
read my kungfubaking blog to find out how i decored my cake yea^^

i jz wanna blog here to thank my frens...
Ash Jr. , Tim Chan, Vinc. Choo n Yn

thanks darlings for coming to see me...
n justin...i understand u were back in ur hometown...
nxt time i shall save a choc mousse for u dei!!
hahaha......

duck rice n "gan pei"...
they wanted me to do it...
for the old times sake...
so we did....
so happy dei when i saw them...

thanks natalie for accompanying me....
crazy bunch of frens...
muahahahahaa............................

we sat in front n talked a lot of stuff....
n i kept reminding the guys not to take back my apples....

cos i accidentally misplaced them...kekekeke.....

but finally they took them too...
hahahaa....cos i forgotten....yeeeee.....

so thanks guys for meeting me...
i LOVE u guys so much darlings!!!!
nxt time....i feed u guys fat fat ya!!! hehehee.......

AsHLeY

Finally~

2009-08-18T10:31:00.000-07:00

Finally.....
Finally.........
Finally!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ashley, Yn, Tim, Vincent

they're finally coming to see me......
tomoro...
after my practical lesson at 2-6pm direeeeect!!!

why arr????

BECAUSE OF MY TIRAMISU!

my lovely tiramisu gonna be given out....
fresh frm da oven...
i dunno lah...
but my roommates damn freaking pissed off when they found out earlier...

they said....

here got

ONE
TWO
THREE

CAKE LOVERS OK????

waliao....i kena gao gao frm them lah....
hahaha.....

kekekeke.......
i finally got his number!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha....stupid lah me....

LOLZZZZ.......

ok...gtg tidok....
if not besok i ngantok dlm class wei!!

AsHLeY

Abang Win!!

2009-08-15T03:19:00.000-07:00

Adui abang Win....
my new institute is MIB

ugh....i tot u knew....

it's short form for MEN IN BLACK

hahaha.....
he nearly fell for it...
hahaa.....

then he said...
aiyah...it's MEN IN BREAD izzit??
n then ini abang pengacau....

do u guys knw wad he said???
he said for my case...
it's to be.....
MADAM IN BREAD!!!

hahah....he really set me LOL-ing
nasib baik tak jatuh katil...
tak dia kena bayar aku punya medical fees......
muahahaha.......

so finally i told him
it's MALAYSIAN INSTITUTE OF BAKING laa....
adui.......

hehehe......

AsHLeY

wow....bzbzbz....

2009-08-14T22:24:00.000-07:00

okok...i knw i m bz...so sorry dudes...
do ask me to tag u in my new blog...
i'm juggling my time for everything now...
damn tiring....

funny stuff in college do happen...

It so happened i met Natalie n Prasanna
two very nice girls....
nat is very open minded, while Prasanna is very innocent...
they're my hostel mates...
n in college i have met my bro's ex room mate...
peter pan, hans, andy, kelvin,
bernard the funny clown, john n sing foo(bro's roomies)
asa n mervin,

as for gals...
suchen is a pretty nice lady...joyce frm sarawak,
n i dunno their names...heehehe...
gimme time dudes...lolzz....
ohya,another hostel mate is alice...
she's a sweet lady....

first bz week consists of making mooncakes,breads n scones...
wow...hehe...
bz rite?

funny stuff do happen...
like that day the joke of the day...
i bathed till no water...
i was thinking i must tell everyone so they won't get caught...
but ironically as i sat down n talked to all my roomies,i forgotten..
so.......alice got caught in the shower with shampoo n bath water MISSING!!

heheeh.....kesian lah.....

all of us laughed till we nearly rolled on the floor...
lolzz....bad rite??

BTW,i m still using this blog for my own personal stuff ok????

AsHLeY

Tis my new blog!!

2009-08-11T04:54:00.000-07:00

Hey....

I now officially annouce my new blog address!!!

http://kungfubaking.blogspot.com

pls visit!!!!

thanks!!!!

AsHLeY

2nd Day of new college!!

2009-08-11T04:11:00.000-07:00

phewwwww!!!!!!!!!
damn tiring....but fun!!
damn happy too...haha...i'm glad i took tis course up...

n not my original decision to go n teach music....
seniors here are good to the juniors...

n with my attitude of "mulut becok" at times...
they r good....i have a lot of frens...
but sadly i hardly can remember their names yet...

got some things pissed me lah...
jz minor stuff...haha....
i had to change my timetable, my group, my shoes...

ugh...i have a nice senior in my group...

but one of the idiotic senior went on to change me into another group...
sigh....wad to do...
he's a good senior lorr...hahah...

maybe i'm a new gal gua.....
biasalah kan...seniors....hahaha...

i'm da oldest in my batch tis time....
n funnily....all call me "tai ka che"(big sista)
hahahaa.....kasian those young un's....
i made my first bread today...
the french Baguette....
keras macam batu....
tiger bread looks like leopard skin..(dun live up to their names)

n rye bread....(ugh...i've no appetite when i see it out..)
hahaha.....so i brought back tiger n baguette...
the rye i gave to Asa to gv to his frens....hahaha....

n hey guys....I'll be baking cakes tomoro....hehee....maybe i'll update my new blog....

n attention to those who wanna meet me up...
i've taken up a part time job...
boss lady has asked me to do part time job...
RM4.50 per hour...a very good pay for a starter like me hah??
so i guess i'll sacrifice all my free time....by next week...hehehee....
learning mah....wad to do??
but tis week still fine if u guys wanna meet me up....saturday??hahah....
do gimme a call lah...i can't contact everyone u knw...

Oh ya...I'll be in KLCC too this Thursday...tat's day after tomoro if u guys read tis post today or tonite...hehehe....10 am-6pm....
so if u guys want meet on thursday in KLCC oso can....
but,
BUT!!!
it's nothing bout music,mass comm, pharmacy or meds....
It's about Baking exhibition ok???
haha....okay lah...
i gotta sign off now...till i update...maybe tomoro?
haha...see ya guys!!!

AsHLeY

Hellooooooo I'm OFFICIALLY BACK!!!!!

2009-08-09T23:54:00.000-07:00

BACK BACK BACK.....

IT'S SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO DAMN GOOD TO BE BACK!!!

MY NEW COURSE IS EXCITING!!!!
really exciting!!!
the seniors are so helpful n PLayful too!! haha....

my roommates are crazier each day i see em....

life here is fun...hardly got any tension....
some of u guys....i knw...u cant wait to meet me....
it's so fun to learn about new stuff that i nvr even knwn about now....
i'm sorry to announce that i m free in da afternoon of MONDAY..
n saturdays n sundays unless i have replacement classes on saturdays....

call me up guys!!
i have met a lot of frens....but none are the same as u guys....
i miss u all dearly....

so much has happened...
yesterday i went to Amcorp Mall in PJ to get some stuff....
n i went to see if there's any music studio up for booking....
and i happened to see a music shop named
"THE SINGING SHOP"

n i talked to the lady boss named miss mary...
fuhyooooooo.............
guess who i MET????
Shah Johan of UCSI...
he's a vocal instructor....
obviously....seniors dunno the juniors....
so miss mary called him up....
n i got in a few words with him....
he was surprised tat i knew him....

i had a little bit of trouble....cos i forgot to bring a pail tis time...
n then....my new bed has no mattress...

n then....i hv no keys....
n my roommates kacau me say i shall hv to sleep on the frame of my bed...
haha.....funny gurlz they are....
finally....it arrived...
n guess what???
it has MUSIC on it!!!!!
n my roommates were jealous of me....
haha.....so funny rite??

As for today's theory...it was a bit of hectic....
briefing was one hour...
n straight theory class...
then i was supposed to be in group 16...
then later i was changed....
so i m in group 15...hahaha....

so....tomoro i shall learn to bake rye bread,tiger bread n french baguette..
pronounce as (bah- gay)
french calles it taty way anyway...
OKlah...i'm freezing frm the airconds in the auditorium n now the computer lab...
later i shall be in KLCC helping at the biggest fair in the city which is held bianually...
so u guys...i'll be in KLCC whole day on thursday.,....i shall cheat some time to blog again soon!!....

Till here now....
AsHLeY

Aug 10th!

2009-08-08T03:12:00.000-07:00

ugh.....

here comes da day!!!

shit...sounds like i'm getting married.... BS...

no....it's my new course....

well i told u guys rite?

or did i not?that i'll reveal it??haha.....

yes i think i did...lolzz....

of flying flour n beating eggs....

with my pin.....here i come!!!

i think it sounds a bit old fashion....but nowdays ppl dun use pins do they???

or did i assume wrongly??

maybe i should wait for it tomoro...hahaha.....

n btw, my fren timmy says i make my new course sounds like......

KUNG FU BAKING....

heheheh....

AsHLeY

stop giving me sarcastic answers...

2009-07-31T05:37:00.000-07:00

MY GAWD!!!
wad's wrong with my dad har....

u guys knw wad he did with me today??

i sms him asking a question earlier this morning...

this was my sms:

Do you knw Evergreen Park in Mentakab,Pahang rears what kind of animals/fish/plants?

He replied:

Sharks, crocs,whales,Dinos......

i asked him back....

Betul ke di???

he replied.....

Wrong a, spirits,devils,ghosts,angels,dracula,batman,superman,ultraman,idonnoman....

SWT TAK?????

really swt kan??

and if i bother to tell u guys....if u still wanna change ur phone numbers every few months or every year....plz do not bother telling me lah....

i paling takut it happens n it happens....really cham wan u guys...

within this month horr.....

5 PPL changed their numbers...n within 3 days.....

4 ppl change numbers....

sigh....gtg already...malas i wan talk panjang..nanti kena nagging...

AsHLeY...

Freaking emo..

2009-07-11T05:53:00.000-07:00

sorry guys...another emo post on me..

so many requests to update...finally i shall do it...

okay okay...enuf crapping...

this few days...

been lectured by my mum...

my dad wasn't happy at my decision to still want to go back to music...

seriously...i was thinking am i leaving my music career behind??

i think vincent is guessing correctly..

but dude...i'm jz picking up another skill...

i nid to chill like ebil said...yes gurl i do knw...

i knw i bothered chin ni too...so sorry gurl...

i m freaking pissed off at times when they realyl make me sad...

do they knw my feelings? no right?

tat was wad my high school fren told me when he read my palm that day...

he said a lot of stuff that shocked me...i wont disclose some personal stuff...

but what he said when i was upset that i will indeed search for my frens instead of turning to my family...

he shocked me to the core...

i really am as what he described...

yes...i have failings in my life...i'm trying to accept myself as it is...

n BS i dun even knw what i want...

that's what's with the emo posts....

n with the fb damn frust post....

i'm having bad dreams...

dreams on very bad situations...

should i try out the new course?

or should i opt for teaching?

or should i jz go and work as a music teacher??

but i dun wish to work in kedah anymore...

i want to be spared from seeing him again...

why the torture?

another 3 days is his birthday...

i nvr gave my heart to a man as i did for him...

i dun even knw should i greet him like i did for the past 3 years i first knew him??

the deja vu day left me a great inpact...

it has been haunting me ever since that day...

and i kept thinking of him...

seriously...

i dun even nw what i should do now...

suppose i fail again...then what should i do???

sigh...i nid to rethink all the consequences that will happen...

till then...i shall think properly....

AsHLeY

this tag is by itchy hands JOSEPH,ANDREW n JACKIE again!!!!

2009-06-21T02:04:00.000-07:00

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 100 Truths about you. At the end, choose how many u like people to be tagged.

WHAT WAS YOUR :
1. Last beverage : Rice n daddy's curry
2. Last phone call : mummy
3. Last text message : (i dun wanna bother touching my phone)
4. Last song you listened to : My own gig I'm Yours
5. Last time you cried : Yesterday

HAVE YOU EVER :
6. Dated someone twice : hell yes...my ex bf...
7. Been cheated on : Hell YES
8. Kissed someone & regretted it : NVR been yet!!
9. Lost someone special : yeah T.T
10. Been depressed : always
11. Been drunk and threw up : drunk yes...threw up??u nuts?

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS :
12. black
13. blue
14. white

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU : (2009)
15. Made a new friend : 200 of em
16. Fallen out of love : yes!
17. Laughed until you cried :yeah!!
18. Met someone who changed you : hell yes!
19. Found out who your true friends were : errr....all my frens are special...
20. Found out someone was talking about you : errr....got....my two best mates...
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list : no...but it wont hurt...
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life : quite a specfic number...
23. How many kids do you want? : i not yet get married lah!!
24. Do you have any pets : died jorr...T.T
25. Do you want to change your name : R U NUTS???
26. What did you do for your last birthday : stupid recital and a relationship plus my bday dinner
27. What time did you wake up today : 11.30
28. What were you doing at midnight : reading
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for : finish tis stupid tags!!
30. Last time you saw your Mother : one hour ago...
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: my music.
32. What are you listening to right now : not listening...only my typing...
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom : Tom NO,TIM YES!!
34. What's getting on your nerves right now : this stupid tag!!!
35. Most visited webpage : blog, facebook,MSN
36. Whats your real name : Tan RQ
37. Nicknames : 52 of em...dun trust me??i'll upload my list!!
38. Relationship Status : single and damnedly AVAILABLE!!
39. Zodiac sign : Libran
40. Male or female? : wish to be a tomboy at times....GIRL LAH!!
41. Primary School? : SK Jalan Bahagia
42. Secondary School? : SMK Temerloh,Hwa Lian n Sultanah Asma
43. High school/college? : UCSI University(previous)
45. Long or short : what's long doc??i'm not short!!
46. Height : 5 feet 4
47 Do you have a crush on someone? : u muz be kidding...hell yes!!
48: What do you like about yourself? : eyes
49. Piercings : earring holes..
51. Righty or lefty : righty

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery : nvr had
53. First piercing : 3 years old...i cried like hell
54. First best friend : my DOGGIES!!
55. First sport you joined : Tennis
56. First vacation : My grandma's home
59. Eating: siao geh...wad question is this??
60. Drinking:stupid question
61. I'm about to: throw up on the stupid tags
62. Listening to : my own mutter n sighing..
63. Waiting for: WHITE PRINCE
64. What kids? : ???
65. Get Married? : if my fate n destiny wants me to be...
66. Career? : musician??no...i'll tell u later...

WHICH IS BETTER:
67. Lips or eyes: eyes
68. Hugs or kisses: hug
69. Shorter or taller: Taller
70. Older or Younger: definitely older
71. Romantic or spontaneous: both
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: stomach
73. Sensitive or loud: both...hehe....cos i'm that...
74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER:
76. Kissed a stranger: WTF!! my ex nvr kissed me oso...
77. Drank hard liquor: highest arr....30% nia..
78. Lost glasses/contacts: my vision is 20/20 lah
79. Sex on first date: siao meh...
80. Broken someone's heart: i think i did more than once...seriously i dun like u..
82. Been arrested: hell NO
83. Turned someone down : got quite a number...i treat u as frens lah....
84. Cried when someone died: hell yes... MY PUPPIES!!
85. Fallen for a friend?: of cos lah!!

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: of course
87. Miracles: NO
88. Love at first sight: ONCE
89. Heaven: DEPENDS
90. Santa Claus: NO~!
91. Kiss on the first date:NO

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: NO
96. Ever cheated on somebody? : NO
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go? : NVR stepped into UCSI
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be? my friendships n avoided my 2nd relationship
99. Are you afraid of falling in love? yes cos i dun trust guys anymore...

I tag:
whoever who itchily wanna be tag....

Tagged by Andrew n Jackie=.=

2009-06-21T01:47:00.000-07:00

1.Besides your lips, where is the favorite spot to get kissed?
me dunno... I have never been kissed before~!

2.How did you feel when you woke up this morning?
gonna sleep again tho is 10.30am!!

3.Who was the last person/people you took a photo with?
my family on my grad~~

4.Would you consider yourself spoiled?
nope...my family is conservative...so not me!!

5.Will you ever donate blood?
u kidding???NO!!!

6.Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
GOT but He's "DEAD"

7.Do you want someone to be dead?
YUP!!!!!

8.What does your last text message say?
O,is it the fren tat came for the gig??Lol i was going toilet larr...then i heard them screaming and shouting inside their toilet.

9.What are u thinking right now?
why the stupid cough n flu is back to plague me?????

10. Do you want someone to be with you now?
a wish will always be a wish!! yes!!my donkey named EEYORE!!

11.What was the time you went to bed last night?
2 am

12.Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now?
My aunt gave it to me....n it's a singlet!

13.Is someone on your mind right now?
Ash Jr,Chin Ni and all my frens in UCSI..

14.Who was the last person who text you?
Timothy

TEN Lucky Person to do this quiz...
1. Andrew
2. Carina
3. Chee Hou
4. Hui Chian
5. Joseph
6.Jun Lin
7. Max
8.
9.
10.

15. Who is no. 2 having a relationship with?
i dunno lah....

16. Is no. 3 a male or a female? ♀

17. If no. 7 and and no. 1 get together, would it be a good?
NO!!! unless HOMO lah....impossible!!

18. What is no. 10 studying about?
Degree in Architechure

19. When was the last time you chatted with them?
seconds ago...

20. Is no. 4 single?
NOPE!

21.Say something about no. 2.
A blur bear who owes me ICE CREAM!!!!

22.What do you think about no. 2 and no. 6 being together?
Siao meh...

23.Describe no. 9.
there's no name there lah!!

24. What will you do if no. 6 and no. 7 fight?
will they??tat's interesting to knw!!

25. Do you like 8?
there's no name lah!!!

UGHH...there's another i nid to do ......Masyollah....

Sadness

2009-06-19T08:41:00.000-07:00

Sadness,

it's what i am going thru..

my frens in UNI r bz as ever...

my "frens" during primary?

some forgotten...

lifelong frens?tak payah harap i have them...

secondary "frens"?all want something out of me...

family? dissapointed with me...

i guess i might not wanna talk about some recent things in my life....

they're horrible memories....

but now....i m starting my life anew?

AM I???

am i doing what i think i am doing??

why?

i seem to have lost everything i have in my life...

i dun wish to lose control of it completely....

i do hope i'll get the hang of myself soon...

i have lost you.

i knw i have..

the day i saw you so happy ...

with her...

talking,

joking,

as if i nvr existed...

i know i could nvr let you go...

but i must try...

deeply frm the bottom of my heart....

i miss you so much.

i wish u will gv me another glance and lie to me that everything is fine between us again...

but...i wish you will nvr know...

i will exchange anything in my life just to see you happy....

and i knew my price for asking it already...

AsHLeY

Welcome?

2009-06-19T08:17:00.000-07:00

Oh no....too many welcomes now....

i've accidentally deleted my blogs...

if u guys see this,plz drop by ur links in my newly updated blog....

so i can tag u guys all up once again...

arigato n sumimasen for the troubles!!

MUACKZ!!!!

AsHLeY